Bye bye Miss Ion! I’m done with the 12 habits in 21 days mission.
And let me tell you – even though I haven’t kept all the rules, and I can honestly say that I broke pretty much all of them, given the 30-years-old-at-heart-teenage-rebellion that I am, I still managed to make most of them a habit.
I’m long not done with my goal to have perfect skin, hair, body and health, but at least I could adopt some habits on the right road to my goal.
Speaking of roads – I was traveling this last week a little, so I did not have access to super healthy foods, as I was also not able to prepare it myself.
As I announced on Tuesday I was pretty excited to be on the road, because it’s a good excuse to eat some pizza and drink some coffee. And that’s exactly what I did day 18.
But I must say besides both coffees, the tuna pizza and the kinda salty shrimps in tomato sauce I made for dinner, I had a green smoothie in the morning.
And I even managed to go to a Zumba class to jump around and point my finger at people who could not do the moves (mostly myself) and maybe burn 10 or 15 kcals.
Day 19 was a day of a team building event and I again drank coffee and had some not-to-be-trusted foods.
I did not take pics of everything I ate that day as I didn’t want to come across as a Japanese in Rome. Not that I give a rat’s ass what anyone thinks of me, if I want to do something, I just do it.
Doesn’t matter if Her Majesty, whoever that is, is disapproving.
Add two servings of tagliatelle with mushrooms, 3 desserts and 2 coffees and day 19 is done. No workout no nothing.
And after two days like that I understood the difference between eating healthy and exercising and eating crap and sitting on your lazy ass after work.
Even though I didn’t see a difference in my appearance – I didn’t gain any weight – after 2 days of only coffee, pizza, pasta and sweets my mood was bad, I felt heavy and I didn’t actually have any energy and motivation to do something.
The best thing about eating healthy and exercising is that both are very interconnected. I felt so powerful when I was working out, I had a very positive mindset, was in the best mood and always felt like I can truly kick anyone’s ass.
Which by the way I did not. I’m a peaceful rebellion.
Eating healthy and having my smoothies in the morning made me feel very energized – I never thought I would not miss a hot beverage. I imagine Sheldon might offer me one kindly in the morning, if he was living across the hall instead of the 80 years old woman who looks evil.
But really once you get used to those morning smoothies – you can not live without them.
And eating healthy motivated me to do more sports – I guess because my body feels very alive, I just need to spend all that energy with extra exercises – and that motivates me to eat healthy again. It’s called the circle of life. Or maybe not.
Day 20 was a day without a coffee (finally) but not very versatile – I had to be out of my house at 6am, so no time for a smoothie and I did not have any time for breakfast. Back at home I had 3 (I repeat: THREE!!!!) portions of this bulgur with vegetables.
This meal is pretty addictive and very healthy. This does not excuse the fact that I only ate those portions throughout the day. And in the evening I went to a pilates class. It’s a worse mediocre day.
But at least I did not drink coffee. I just decided I don’t want it and I didn’t buy one. And this is why I’m most proud of myself this year – having control over myself and over my actions. Saying you will never drink coffee, you will never drink alcohol, you will never eat sugar, you will never eat meat, you will never pee in a public place – just sounds like you want to punish yourself. And I’ve been doing this for a while – forbidding myself normal things. This leads only to overdoing them one day. And then it triggers guilt. And feelings of insuccess. And low self esteem and lack of control over yourself eventually.
But doing things slowly and giving yourself time to decide whether you truly want something or you’re only brainwashing yourself by not giving it to yourself when you need it – will give you control. Not control over everyone and everything, but over yourself. And that’s a lot. That’s power – the power to have something when you want it and to say no to it, when you actually don’t want it. You are saying good bye to a bad habit. That’s all it is.
Yes and day 21 I said good bye to my 12 habits in 21 days mission. It was yesterday – I drank coffee, I had a cupcake, a very delicious lentil soup and a salad. I would not say it’s the perfect ending on a story, but there’s nothing perfect in life. Besides lentils that is.
I did not take pics, or I took but those were not good and are still on my phone. Anyway I’m ready now for the next step and I’ll write a summary tomorrow of how I solved some of my challenges during the 12 habits in 21 days mission.
Bye bye Miss Ion Possible!